INTRODUCTION THREAD: People affected by Hep B

Hi all. I’m from Ukraine. Sorry, I don’t understand English well, I’m writing through a translator. I’m 30 . Exactly a year ago I was diagnosed with chronic hepatitis. B. My first viral load result was . 16.400 second 3500 third 4400 fourth 6300. Now the doctor wants to give me treatment. I don’t understand if I really need it now? Or my organization will still cope. I believe that he will be able to keep the virus under control. My liver looks normal. Result 9 months ago F-0. I am very afraid of treatment. I am generally afraid of everything. I am very suspicious of my health and my loved ones. I have a wife . We really want children. She doesn’t worry about my hepatitis at all, we gave her a vaccine. And she tells me you’re healthy It’s okay that you have it, take pills, donate blood and everything will be fine. Also, my parents and my friends, who knows, no one really cares too much. They say everything will be fine. But I can’t do this, it seems like death is flowing through my veins. And I won’t last long. It seems to me that I have 5-10 years left to live and then I will die in agony. I love my wife very much and she loves me very much. I often think that she doesn’t deserve to bear this cross. I don’t want us to have children and I died 10 years later (. It’s very hard for me; nothing makes me happy, I closed myself off. Although physically I feel fine. Before I found out, I wanted to live and have fun; I have a lot of plans for business and development, I wanted to create. Now it’s all somehow become gray. Now I’m thinking, why should I build a business if I don’t live long. Every time tests are like the end of the world, it’s a lot of stress for me. Understanding what you’re going to die from is very sad. And also It’s sadder to understand that you won’t last long. And I really wanted to live long. I can write this forever, I’m some kind of pessimist. My life is falling apart. Although with this virus it’s already ruined. (Sorry, maybe I just don’t fully understand this hepatitis virus b. But since childhood I know that this is a very terrible whitening. With which people cannot live for a long time. If only I knew that I could live to a ripe old age with this virus, it would be much easier. Since, thank God, it did not bring me any important discomfort .