Hi @sam12,
Thank you for sharing your experiences and vulnerabilities. I know it can be a lot when being diagnosed with hep B and indeed you’re not alone regarding these thoughts. Some of the other threads have shown that these mental impacts are quite common throughout - Mental Health - Hep B Community
While meditation can be helpful, if these thoughts are recurring and really impacting your daily life, please reach out for more formal medical supports through your health provider. Some resources can also be accessed by other means: Mental Health resources
Wishing you all the best,
Thomas